The only emotion I can say I feel on a regular basis is panic, and the relief from panic. There is too much going on in my life, my head, and in my heart. No other feelings have the ability to catch up. I want to take days off from work not to relax but so I can get everything else done so I have time to relax afterwards. To closely approximate this feeling, spend an hour on the internet without any discernible purpose.

Too much analysis starts at this input-driven ADD. But I think the madness stems from what these glowing distractions supposedly are distracting us from. Our society values nothing but achievement and believes we should sacrifice everything for the longest resume. Even people who take on an alternative lifestyle are only admired for the alternative entryway that it will give them to success and fortune. Whether you are an investment banker or an organic radish farmer you are valued only by the ability of your ideas to generate money as an investment. Kudos to those who give away their art and their work for free, they are heroes, however briefly they survive.